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Auntie Bella Scalise |
I will never forget the last day and 2 day's before the accident...Joey was so happy..he had the biggest smile on his face (as usual) and was walking around the family re-union saying " Hi I am Joe Scalise"...
He had just got done working on my car a few weeks before that so when he saw me he came walking up to me and said with such pride "Auntie Bella how's urrrr car runnin" and when I told him it ran better now than the day I bought it, he beemed with pride...
He was so proud that he was a good mechanic, that's all he really wanted to do with his life...He had just gotten the form's to fill out so he could get into a school...
He was so sure that's what he wanted to do that he made the effort , with his cousin Franke Kamlan, to get his native american card w/ his photo because they would pay for him to go to the school...
I think when he found that out he really pushed forward to go for it!
The Monday that he passed I happened to pass by to see my sister Tami and Jojo came up to the car and was talking to me...
We some how got on the subject of his strength and he told me (while patting his hand in the center of his chest) " Auntie I have this strength in me and I dont know where it come's from"...I am hoping that in his passing that strength he told me about, that is so vividly etched in my mind, has helped him in his process of passing, and I feel sometime's that he is shareing that strength with all of us, as everytime I think of him its with that crooked little grin and those beautiful sparkeling eye's saying "auntie B you too have the strength"....
God know's we all have needed it....
What a blessing it was, although for only a short while, that we got to have you Joey in our family...
There is not a moment of the day you are not thought of....
I know you must be here to help your "mom" and Shelly.....What a great kid you are my nephew...I love you with all my heart <3<3<3
Mom |
I just want to Thank everyone for sharing your stories of your Children, I have just lost my beautiful 18 year old Son Joey on June 22 2009, It has been the most painful thing I have ever gone through, His beautiful face and his precious memories never leave my mind, not for one second of one minuet of one hour, awake or asleep.... I re live the day he passed and the whole week leading up to his funeral on a daily basis... It is so hard to cope. I love my Son with all of my being and miss him tremendously, I could never explain this pain to anyone else, they just dont understand, but I know that you do... It is so unfortunate that we have to be here, but I am thankful that I found you, I couldnt make it through the day without your encouraging words and your loving thoughts about your own Children. I am praying that I have strength and that I dont die from a broken heart, I need to be here for my Daughter who has lost her baby Brother and her best friend. Will the tears and deep sorrow ever stop? Will my mind ever rest? Will I be able to look at his pictures without wanting to die and be with him? Will I ever stop wondering his every moment up to his passing? His last thoughts? Did he feel any pain? Was he thinking about me when he saw it coming? I begged him that day not to get on that motorcycle, it was his friends, I lost my fiance in 1980 to a motorcycle accident and I just never felt safe around them, I always felt a bad omen... he only road it a few times, I thought "Oh he will get pulled over and the police will impound it becuase it isnt registered" he only road it up and down the street, I never thought he would get up on the freeway, Shoot, the bikes clutch was broken, he had to get off of it every time he had to stop and he would have to push it to get it into gear... The day of the accident his last words to me were "Mom, just because you had one bad experience doesnt mean you cant let me live my life!"... How I wish I wouldve sat on him and held him down, I went upstairs to my bedroom to get online with my friend from England, we were talking for a few hours when his friends ran into my room to tell me he was in an accident on the freeway, then I heard the words "MOM, HE'S DEAD!!!!!" I will never forget that, I heard myself screaming, "NO, NO, No, No,!!!!!!" I ran I was trying to get to my Baby, it was a horable nightmare, one that will be burned into my mind forever, I felt like I was running in slow motion.... The rest is a blur, I do remember a police officer grabbing me and not letting me go to my Son, I was hitting and kicking him, I just wanted to get to him... I didnt know where he was, I just knew he was on the freeway somewhere and I would have run a thousand miles to get to him.... I never got to see my Baby that night, I sat on the curb at the coroners office and waited for that white van to pull in, thinking "WAKE UP, THIS IS A NIGHTMARE, IT ISNT HAPPENING...WAKE UP" then I saw the van and I knew it was real... They wouldnt let me see him, I begged I pleaded, but the Deputy was a very kind man and he said he just couldnt let me see him... I had to wait until the next day to see him at the funeral home. Just thinking about it is so unreal, I saw him, unmade up, my family was with me, I had them take pictures, I dont ever want to forget him or what he went through or how he looked, people say that they want to remember how they were, Well, that was my reality, this is how he was, he wasnt smiling or making jokes or having fun, this was it!!! Im sorry, I had to get this all out, maybe someone can help me, I am so scared. I miss him so much and love him and it is killing me not to hear him come through that door every day and night running up the stairs, asking me to cook for him, or telling me goodnight and that he loves me.... Thank you for listening to me...
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shannon lubkeman |
i remember when joe first started going to the jr high. i saw him walking after lunch and went up to him and was like who are you.. i dnt recognize u.. are you new.. just asking him all kind of questions.
after that i asked if he wanted he could start hanging out with us.. and after that he did.
its been awhile now that him and i have hung out.. but i always remember him with that same hugh smile on his face.
he brought out the best in everyone and he is going to be missed soo much. everytime i hung out with joe it was always fun and always an adventure. if it werent for him i wouldnt know wat roof tag was. lol
but all i can say is i am just so happy i got to run into him the day of alhambra's graduation. to see him one last time. with his huge grin on his face and to give him that big hug i did.
i love you joey.
xoxo
shannon
Colleen Callahan |
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